So with all the crap I have been through in the last two weeks, I've decided I'm done being a girl! HA!
So two weeks ago I saw my ob/gyn because of all the problems I've had. Yesterday I had an ultrasound to see if the endometriosis had come back. Well it appears to be OK at this point. 15 days into my cycle. I do have a 1.5 cm cyst on the right ovary. So she gave me options. We can wait and see how this all plays out (I've been doing that since October and it has gotten worse), we can try a progesterone only birth control pill (not guaranteed to work or to be a good fix at all), we can try the depo shot (again, not a permanent fix and wouldn't be able to stay on it for long and major weight gain is a side effect) or hysterectomy leaving the right ovary. So taking all emotions out of it and after presenting the options to my dear husband, he and I both decided the hysterectomy was the best option. The problem with the others is, number one, I'm not doing any more wait and see and watch this get worse, been there done that, don't want to do it again! Number two, the other two fixes are temporary and may or may not work. So why put my body through all of that just to have to do the surgery eventually anyway. By the way, given family history, yeah I'm only about a year and a half earlier than when my mother had to have hers done too.
So I called her back today and we scheduled the surgery for February 9th. I won't know the time until the 7th when the hospital calls to tell me that. So far I am her first surgery for that day so I should have the first time at 7:30am which means I need to be there at 5:30am. Have I mentioned before, I am NOT a morning person? They had better have drugs on standby! He he!
So I got the run down of pre op stuff today from her and the nurse, no motrin or asprin, no green tea or herbal suppliments in pill form of any kind from now until surgery. No alcohol the day before surgery and no eating or drinking after midnight before my surgery. I'll spend the night in the hospital, be released on Thursday and then I am to do NOTHING for 10 days. I am allowed to walk around my house (get rid of the gasses they pump you full of for laproscopic surgery) and I can go to the bathroom, no stairs, no cooking, no cleaning I'm not even allowed to fold a load of laundry. So I guess I'd better teach my helpers how to wash the diapers, and stuff the pocket ones! After the 10 days I'll be released to do things as I feel up to it but full recovery is 4-6 weeks. This is putting a bit of a damper on our vacation to my Aunt Sue's. I'll have to see if I'll be released for traveling that far. I mean seriously, I won't be doing much there either because it is snowy and cold! We'll just be hanging around the house for the most part I'm sure.
I am relieved for now. I was really scared they may take the ovary and put me into menopause. So I'm glad we can do it this way and not put me through that at 34. I'm looking forward to not going through this pain and mess every month! The amount of money I will save in prescriptions and sanitary items and the severe ups and downs. I know I will still have PMS because I will still have hormones, but it won't be as bad when I'm not dealing with the pain on top of it! I'm kind of looking forward to it at this point. Just to be done with all the hassle and the pain. I think my husband will be happier too! Poor thing won't have to wonder what wife is waking up that day! So wish me luck! I have a lot to plan and get done in the next 13 days! It will probably drag on for me, but I'm sure I'll find ways to fill the time!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Tuesday Morning Ramblings
So I have female issues. Lots of them. I have lumpy, bumpy breasts and they call this condition Fibrocystic Breast Disease. Caused by hormonal changes. I also have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and now apparently endometriosis. The PCOS (polycistic ovarian syndrome) is what caused me to have to take fertility treatments to have my youngest son. After his birth it was decided I would do Mirena for birth control. I didn't want anymore children, I was breast feeding and it seemed to be the best options for us. That didn't last a year. It worked great for about 6 months, then I developed ovarian cysts that were causing massive pain. We tried everything to get rid of the cysts short of surgery and removal of the Mirena. Cysts do happen with Mirena but usually resolve themselves. Well let me just say, if it is supposed to be "usually" then you can count that my body will do the opposite! We even added another form of birth control, NuvaRing. That worked for about 2 weeks to alleviate some of my symptoms. It finally came down to, Mirena had to come out, and the left ovary and tube had to go. The cyst that had grown was 2.5cm on the ultrasound on Wednesday. A week later during surgery it was found that the cyst was 5 cm, had taken over the entire ovary and was filled with blood. While they were in there they did the NovaSure which is a uterine ablation for the endrometriosis. I had never been officially diagnosed with it at that point, but my symptoms were pointing that way. They tied my right tube, left my right ovary in and that was that. With the NovaSure, my periods were supposed to stop or at least lighted. They did for a while. I had the surgery in March of 2010 and for a while I was only menstruating every other month and only for 2-3 days and it was so light I didn't need to wear even a panty liner. Well come October of 2010 my cycle was changing to every 21 days, heavy for the first 2 days and then lasting an additional 3 days. I started getting hot flashes, night sweats and massive mood swings. My family doctor had put me on a new medication approved for Fibromyalgia. It also helped with my mood swings. Well after the holidays and having to go off the new medication for a while, I went back on the medication and decided that I was going crazy and mean and needed to get into the doctor. So I called and they got me in yesterday. They took two vials of blood to check hormones to see if the the hot flashes and mood swings might be caused by menopause and I have an ultrasound scheduled for next Wednesday to see what the endometriosis is doing. My doctor informed me if it is my endometriosis, then the only way to get rid of it now, is a hysterectomy. At least removing the remaining right ovary. So, in other words, if my body is not going through menopause on its own, then they may have to do it surgically. I'm not sure how I feel about that.
I know I say all the time, especially during "That time of the month," that I want them to rip my stuff out, because I am done with it and the pain can be too much to handle at times, but now they may be taking that choice away from me. It sounds stupid as I type it even that I'd be upset about them doing something I have wanted to do for so long. But then it is one thing to think it might make things better and then knowing that means, you have to do hormone replacement therapy or go through a full fledged menopause at 34! I can't do hormone replacement because of my breast health issues. How fun is that! I know there are natural remedies out there to help alleviate some of the symptoms and I would look into those. But just the thought of this is scary!
And then my youngest turns 2, gave up his binkie, is going longer between naps, his speech is coming along great and now he is wanting to use the potty! It is all happening too fast! Ugh! I think I am ready to sleep through this year too! I'm still trying to pay off the last surgery! I can't imagine what will happen if I have to have another one. And then, do I go for the full hysterectomy or just the other ovary. And all of this while I'm trying not to think about it because I don't want to get upset about it without knowing all the test results, but I hate the waiting. It gives you way too much time to let your mind ramble!
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I know I say all the time, especially during "That time of the month," that I want them to rip my stuff out, because I am done with it and the pain can be too much to handle at times, but now they may be taking that choice away from me. It sounds stupid as I type it even that I'd be upset about them doing something I have wanted to do for so long. But then it is one thing to think it might make things better and then knowing that means, you have to do hormone replacement therapy or go through a full fledged menopause at 34! I can't do hormone replacement because of my breast health issues. How fun is that! I know there are natural remedies out there to help alleviate some of the symptoms and I would look into those. But just the thought of this is scary!
And then my youngest turns 2, gave up his binkie, is going longer between naps, his speech is coming along great and now he is wanting to use the potty! It is all happening too fast! Ugh! I think I am ready to sleep through this year too! I'm still trying to pay off the last surgery! I can't imagine what will happen if I have to have another one. And then, do I go for the full hysterectomy or just the other ovary. And all of this while I'm trying not to think about it because I don't want to get upset about it without knowing all the test results, but I hate the waiting. It gives you way too much time to let your mind ramble!
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Tuesday, January 4, 2011
My Youngest is turning 2!
Now granted when Dan turned 2 we still thought we were going to have another child, by the time he started preschool we had all but given up on having another child. When he went to Kindergarten having another child was the furthest thing from my mind and by the end of that year, hello, baby number 2 was on the way. So maybe that is it, I know this is my last child and there is no chance for another one.
I can't have any more kids, I don't have a left ovary or tube and my right tube has been cut, not to mention I have had uterine ablation surgery, so that is just physically not possible for me anymore. Maybe that is what is bothering me, the fact that my baby, is turning 2, he is turning into a toddler, no longer my baby and I know, it is physically impossible to have another baby. Even though I know now, I am too old to have a baby anymore! Physically too old, not chronologically. My old body just can't do it anymore. I need sleep, not the sleep deprivation that comes with a new born! My nerves need sleep to help heal themselves, and so sleep deprivation is no longer an option! Knowing all of this logically helps, but maybe, just maybe logic doesn't help the heart. Now I just wonder how hard preschool will be, that first day of Kindergarten all the firsts that I enjoyed with Danny, are they just going to be heartbreaking with Alex? Makes me wonder! Well I guess I'll keep you updated. Scary thought huh?
Thursday, December 30, 2010
My Children
So I have decided that my children are officially insane! I love my kids, I do, but they do drive me crazy some days. Most of the time only for a few hours! It doesn't help that during the holidays you are already stressed beyond your normal stuff, but then you add financial woes to it, medical concerns and it all ads up. There needs to be a support group for that! Just to get you through the holidays. Or as I like to call them the Holidaze!
I try to be a good mom, I do. I know I'm not perfect and I deal with things by venting. At times that gets me in trouble. Oh well. What am I going to do? I figure it is better to vent it out then to act on it. Most of the time I say it and try to say it in a joking way. Some people apparently don't get my humor and take offense to it. Again, I can't help it. I guess from now on when I get that way, I'll stick to talking to those that do get my humor. That or I'm gonna go bald! Not that I don't have enough hair to lose, but I think I'd look awful funny bald!
So Christmas is done, the boys are happy playing with their new toys and reading their new books and dressing in their new clothes. Now it is time to get ready to close out the year and this holiday season. Tomorrow is New Years and we are having a group of people over to watch some hockey and ring in the New Year together. Family oriented as there are plenty bringing their children. We keep it low key around here, my husband works in the pizza industry and believe it or not, New Years Eve is a big holiday for them! Last year he barely made it home before 11:30 pm! It kind of stinks because we get invites every year to do something and we never can! But he has a job that brings in a paycheck and has insurance so we count our blessings on that!
Now my crazy children are demanding my attention while I write this and try to clean my house so I guess I'd better get back to it. Break over, back to being a stay at home mom! Is school back in session yet? ;)
Hope you all have a safe and Happy New Years Eve! And a fantastic New Year!
I try to be a good mom, I do. I know I'm not perfect and I deal with things by venting. At times that gets me in trouble. Oh well. What am I going to do? I figure it is better to vent it out then to act on it. Most of the time I say it and try to say it in a joking way. Some people apparently don't get my humor and take offense to it. Again, I can't help it. I guess from now on when I get that way, I'll stick to talking to those that do get my humor. That or I'm gonna go bald! Not that I don't have enough hair to lose, but I think I'd look awful funny bald!
So Christmas is done, the boys are happy playing with their new toys and reading their new books and dressing in their new clothes. Now it is time to get ready to close out the year and this holiday season. Tomorrow is New Years and we are having a group of people over to watch some hockey and ring in the New Year together. Family oriented as there are plenty bringing their children. We keep it low key around here, my husband works in the pizza industry and believe it or not, New Years Eve is a big holiday for them! Last year he barely made it home before 11:30 pm! It kind of stinks because we get invites every year to do something and we never can! But he has a job that brings in a paycheck and has insurance so we count our blessings on that!
Now my crazy children are demanding my attention while I write this and try to clean my house so I guess I'd better get back to it. Break over, back to being a stay at home mom! Is school back in session yet? ;)
Hope you all have a safe and Happy New Years Eve! And a fantastic New Year!
Monday, December 27, 2010
My diapers!
So I ordered some diapers not that long ago. I love my all in one's (AIO) by Monkey Doodlez. www.monkeydoodlez.com But they take forever to dry! So I heard more and more about pocket diapers. Decided I would try some. So I purchased 2 Happy Heiny pocket diapers. www.happyheinystore.com I'm in love! Besides the really cute prints they are super soft and really absorbent! My little man is a serious heavy wetter and these stand up to him! So now I have 2 Happy Heiny's in my stash and 2 more on the way. I ordered them and didn't realize they were newer prints so they are supposed to ship out this week! I can't wait!
My biggest complaint with cloth diapers is the fact when it comes to poopy diapers that don't just peel off into the toilet I am left scrubbing! I have to take it downstairs to the laundry sink and get sprayed down with lord knows what! So I am researching diaper sprayers! Wish me luck! I'm researching, reading reviews and looking at the price too! I'm all about the money! I'll keep you updated!
My biggest complaint with cloth diapers is the fact when it comes to poopy diapers that don't just peel off into the toilet I am left scrubbing! I have to take it downstairs to the laundry sink and get sprayed down with lord knows what! So I am researching diaper sprayers! Wish me luck! I'm researching, reading reviews and looking at the price too! I'm all about the money! I'll keep you updated!
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Cloth diapers!
Why I love cloth diapers!
Now on to good stuff! Alex got his new diapers yesterday and I washed them and dried them last night! I absolutly love them! They are so soft and so asborbant. We took Alex to drop Dan off at school today and then to the doctor and then to two different stores and home again. We changed him and yes the inserts were damp and heavy but the moisture was hardly there at all against his skin! I think I found my new favorite diapers! Not to mention the cutest patterns!
I love when people are shocked that I use cloth diapers. Well think about it, disposables are nasty, read the ingredients list in those diapers one time, you'll think twice about it. Not to mention how much harder is it to throw away a diaper as opposed to put it in a pail and wash 2-3 times a week. Side note: you are not supposed to throw away poop in your garbage. It is illegal. So you are still dumping poop in the toilet. Same as cloth. It might have taken me a bit of time to get a pattern down for washing the diapers and what works best for my son's sensitive skin. But I would never go back! They are so much better for him and for our environment and yes they may be a bit pricey to put up the money at the start but I have bought them a little at a time and I have quit the little stash going. My biggest problem is that I am addicted to cloth diapers now. I want one of every color and one of every boy print available now! LOL I have to watch my spending. The detergents range anywhere from specialized, organic detergents to good old regular Tide. Drying- throw them in your dryer with out dryer sheets or better yet come summer, dry them outside on the line. Sun is a natural bleach by the way! I am a complete convert. Oh yeah that was after a one week trial by the way. I won a one week trial from www.greengoodnessdiaperservice.com This is a local company, owned and operated by a woman minority!
I have met some people that are absolutely crazy about all natural. OK I have to use organic stuff on his butt, but other than that, I'm not all that green. I try to be, I want to leave this planet safe for my kids, their kids and their kids. I don't think that is wrong, but no, I am by far no tree hugger. It has opened my eyes to a few things though and I'll continue to learn, that's all any of us can do.
I love when people are shocked that I use cloth diapers. Well think about it, disposables are nasty, read the ingredients list in those diapers one time, you'll think twice about it. Not to mention how much harder is it to throw away a diaper as opposed to put it in a pail and wash 2-3 times a week. Side note: you are not supposed to throw away poop in your garbage. It is illegal. So you are still dumping poop in the toilet. Same as cloth. It might have taken me a bit of time to get a pattern down for washing the diapers and what works best for my son's sensitive skin. But I would never go back! They are so much better for him and for our environment and yes they may be a bit pricey to put up the money at the start but I have bought them a little at a time and I have quit the little stash going. My biggest problem is that I am addicted to cloth diapers now. I want one of every color and one of every boy print available now! LOL I have to watch my spending. The detergents range anywhere from specialized, organic detergents to good old regular Tide. Drying- throw them in your dryer with out dryer sheets or better yet come summer, dry them outside on the line. Sun is a natural bleach by the way! I am a complete convert. Oh yeah that was after a one week trial by the way. I won a one week trial from www.greengoodnessdiaperservice.com This is a local company, owned and operated by a woman minority!
I have met some people that are absolutely crazy about all natural. OK I have to use organic stuff on his butt, but other than that, I'm not all that green. I try to be, I want to leave this planet safe for my kids, their kids and their kids. I don't think that is wrong, but no, I am by far no tree hugger. It has opened my eyes to a few things though and I'll continue to learn, that's all any of us can do.
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Christmas Shopping
So this year, I did about a 50/50 split shopping online and shopping in the stores. With only 11 days left I still need to get Alex toys for Christmas from Santa. Right now he has all clothes and there are 3 new diapers on the UPS truck, out for delivery today. I can't wait to get them! I need to get Keith something to open on Christmas, he already got his birthday gift and his major Christmas gift out of necessity. His birthday gift (btw his birthday is Friday December 17th) was a new bread knife. I accidentally gave away a bunch of knives when we moved into our new house because he complained around of them. His Christmas gift was a new winter coat. Something that with these 9 degree days he kind of needs! So I'm thinking for something for him to open, a new pair of gloves, hat and scarf set. He has a hat, but it doesn't fit his big head and no scarf and his gloves are useless. At least he'll have something to open.
I know what I want to get Alex for Christmas I just haven't gotten it yet. Danny is all done, and we keep finding more for him. Not fair for Alex, thank goodness he is still too young to know! But I think some of Dan's gifts are more for Keith or I than it is really for Dan! LOL Oops! You know like some of the video games we buy, movies stuff like that. I wonder if I'm the only parent that does that!
And talk about being really weird, buying Alex diaper's for Christmas. They are so cute though and I couldn't help it! With Alex's sensitive skin cloth diapers are a must. And even then I deal with occasional rashes and outbreaks. I just finished stripping all of his diapers this weekend. It was not a fun process but amazing the difference in them and him now. Here is a picture of his two newest diapers, and why I am addicted to fluff!
Of course Dan is on his second snow day of the week, so I have him home from school and Alex is sick and teething. It is so not fun at my house! Alex has all kinds of green junk in his nose and coughing up loogies too that are nice and green. He seems to be doing fine other than having the runny nose and occasional cough. I'm hoping he will fight it off on his own, if not, he'll be going to the doctor on Friday! Even if we were just there last Thursday. I'm hoping it is just a cold!
OK and totally off subject but this has been bugging me! The state of Michigan sucks! We have been sub zero temperatures since Sunday. On top of that snow, and before the snow and freezing temps we had rain so under all that snow is ice. Now Michigan's great idea is to plow and salt. Hey guess what, Salt doesn't work below 20 degrees! I know calcium chloride is too expensive but how about sand or something so we have some traction. Seriously I think I need to be a city manager cause this stuff seems like such common sense to me!
OK and then on to the idiots in their 4x4's that think they own the road, YOU DO NOT! Cool you have 4x4 and it will get you through that drifted snow with out getting stuck, but you hit a patch of ice doing 60 while everyone else is doing 30, your gonna kill someone. So stop! You will slide on ice just as much as the rest of us and while we might be in a minor fender bender because we were going slower than you, you, going double our speed, are going to kill someone, yourself or someone else. Either way, SLOW DOWN MORON! OK rant done thank you!
I know what I want to get Alex for Christmas I just haven't gotten it yet. Danny is all done, and we keep finding more for him. Not fair for Alex, thank goodness he is still too young to know! But I think some of Dan's gifts are more for Keith or I than it is really for Dan! LOL Oops! You know like some of the video games we buy, movies stuff like that. I wonder if I'm the only parent that does that!
And talk about being really weird, buying Alex diaper's for Christmas. They are so cute though and I couldn't help it! With Alex's sensitive skin cloth diapers are a must. And even then I deal with occasional rashes and outbreaks. I just finished stripping all of his diapers this weekend. It was not a fun process but amazing the difference in them and him now. Here is a picture of his two newest diapers, and why I am addicted to fluff!
Of course Dan is on his second snow day of the week, so I have him home from school and Alex is sick and teething. It is so not fun at my house! Alex has all kinds of green junk in his nose and coughing up loogies too that are nice and green. He seems to be doing fine other than having the runny nose and occasional cough. I'm hoping he will fight it off on his own, if not, he'll be going to the doctor on Friday! Even if we were just there last Thursday. I'm hoping it is just a cold!
OK and totally off subject but this has been bugging me! The state of Michigan sucks! We have been sub zero temperatures since Sunday. On top of that snow, and before the snow and freezing temps we had rain so under all that snow is ice. Now Michigan's great idea is to plow and salt. Hey guess what, Salt doesn't work below 20 degrees! I know calcium chloride is too expensive but how about sand or something so we have some traction. Seriously I think I need to be a city manager cause this stuff seems like such common sense to me!
OK and then on to the idiots in their 4x4's that think they own the road, YOU DO NOT! Cool you have 4x4 and it will get you through that drifted snow with out getting stuck, but you hit a patch of ice doing 60 while everyone else is doing 30, your gonna kill someone. So stop! You will slide on ice just as much as the rest of us and while we might be in a minor fender bender because we were going slower than you, you, going double our speed, are going to kill someone, yourself or someone else. Either way, SLOW DOWN MORON! OK rant done thank you!
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